Nothing To Say.

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I’m running out of energy, my lack of sleep is catching up with me. I don’t know how much fight I have left in me, but it doesn’t feel like a lot. 

So SOPA got shelved. That’s cool. 

Rawr! Nerd rage!

Programming is hard.

That is all.

Update on this. Still a major pain. But it is done, and if it’s not the way he wants it… Well I don’t know how to do it any other way. 

Star Wars: The Old Republic

So, I’m a big star wars fan, and after many, many large periods of time poured into playing star wars galaxies, the old mmo, I thought I’d try out The Old Republic, or tor as I shall now refer to it from now on. Tor, is an mmorpg, and after over a year of waiting I’ve finally been allowed to play on the beta testing servers. And to be honest with you, I like it. I went into it thinking “It’s just going to be like all the other mmo’s, scared to be unique and doomed to fail for it.” Well actually it kind of is like that. However they’ve done something amazing. Created immersion within the inane side quests.

I played wow, I only hate it on principle of getting such a huge fan base without doing anything new and destroying shareholder faith in innovation in the genre. However I cannot play it because I find it so, fucking boring. I’ve tried all the professions and I don’t care how fun raiding is, if I have to kill one more boar because I’m the only ork with the ability to move I’m actually going to hunt a blizzard executive and make a money pouch out of his scrotum. 

I can hear you asking “But Rob, what’s different about tor’s side quests then?” Well simply, what you’re doing seems to actually be important on some scale. Before I was level 10 I’d uncovered spies, saved hundreds of refugees from sniper ambush and saved just about all the orphans on Ord Mantell from becoming drug addled seperatist soldiers. Do you know how I know I did all this? Because the game told me, I didn’t have to read a page of size 4 text to find out what I was doing. By having nearly all conversations with npc’s voice acted immersion drastically increases. At one point I stopped and thought “Hm, this actually feels like I’m playing a regular rpg.” But then combat gave it away that I wasn’t. 

It’s still unrefined at the moment, and lag was an issue, but I think that’s because the servers were being overloaded as part of the test. I don’t think my laptop helped much either. 

After playing for many hours already, I can say I’m actually looking forward to the release of this game, geez, didn’t think I’d ever say that about an mmo. I’m laying off it a bit now because I don’t want to ruin much of the genuinely interesting story line. 

Uni, then.

  The absolutely staggering number of votes have been counted, and unanimously I have arbitrarily decided I would talk about my experience of uni so far.

So, I decided in 2010 that I would become a pharmacist, as such I tried very hard in chemistry and biology so that I could get into a pharmacy course. Chemistry, as I predicted, let me down. I know it’s a bad workman that blames his tools, but honestly it’s very difficult to revise a subject that you don’t have very much knowledge on as a direct result of lazy teachers.

So as I was saying, I didn’t get into pharmacy directly, the universities I applied to didn’t actually reject me. They kept my file in their system “In case an appropriate course can be allocated to me.” Basically meaning, they wanted to palm me off on some bullshit “healthcare science” degree where you come out not knowing what the fuck you can do with it. So I requested that they release me into clearing. However they did not do this immediately and I had to wait until the following Monday causing me an enormous amount of stress. I then tried to get into pharmacy via clearing, only to find that the places were gone, and they hadn’t bothered to delete the entry off of ucas, or I had just missed it by one phone call, sucks huh?

I then thought, well maybe I can do something different, I could do engineering? Why not? I like physics, and I think I’m good at problem solving maybe not the greatest thanks to the education system and it’s preference to memorising tedious pointless information (Who cares if I can remember what colour iron solution turns in the presence of ammonia? It’s written in text books for God’s sake). So I applied to do mechanical engineering, unfortunately I missed the MEng course by 20 ucas points, but there’s still a chance to get upgraded if I do well in the next two years.

So now I’m here at the uni of Greenwich, medway campus, I don’t live on campus, which made the initial transition phase a little bit more daunting I think what with it being harder to get into a friends group. I’ve got one now, I think. Somehow I became the ethnic minority.

So actually at uni, so far we’re not making much progress, revisiting maths, as well as being taught some wrong stuff. Some drawing. I wonder when the difficulty gets majorly ramped up?

What do I want to do when I qualify? Well, maybe I’ll get and MSc in something so that I can become a CEng. But ultimately, right now I want to go into military technology. I always wanted to join the army, but I was talked out of it, for the better I guess. On the other hand, I don’t think I’ll know what I actually want to do until I get some experience at it. You never know until the opportunity arises, I guess.

Okay, I’m out of ideas, see you.

So, I don’t know about any of you, but I’m prone to nightmares. The more stressed and lonely I feel, the more frequent and vivid they become. Recently, I’ve felt pretty damn alone. 

It probably stems from the fact that I don’t live with any other students and I think I’ve become that guy who just turns up to social events even though nobody really wants me there. If you’re going to uni next year, I really recommend you make sure you get into halls. It’ll be a lot easier to make friends. 

I don’t want any sympathy, I just wanted to say something.

Why?

Why am I bothering with this? Well this isn’t actually the first blog I’ve made. The first I deleted when my ex found out about it, and I was embarrassed actually. She told me I should remake it, and about 3 weeks later I have.

I don’t really plan on telling people about this, just as before, but she said it was good I finally thought about my opinions, and I thought about it, and I agree. Maybe I should show her? Maybe that’ll make her think I’m really mature or something, I doubt it, she knows me, but whatever. 

I’ll put it to a vote, what should I talk about next? (Though I’m the only one voting I imagine.)

GM stuff?

Maybe uni?

Perhaps the recent discoveries? (That is the speed of light stuff and the brain imaging)

I’m also open to suggestions, or as I should call them, what I think of later today.

Science, then.

So, science… What is it? 

If I were to sum up science I would call it the pursuit of improving human life. That is because pretty much everything science does can improve your life. Recent advances in science have led to; Gauze, that was invented during the wars, very useful when you’re bleeding. Flight, Well, I’m sure you know how that’s useful. Computers, massively boosting the potential of industry, as well as your entertainment.

Well I’m sure you can think of these things on your own so. Now I have a thought, why do people who use technology so often, hate on scientists? Science is rational, ever moving, and happier to accept its mistakes than ignore them. I don’t see a problem.

Some people say scientists are testing God, what gives us the right to perform the tests we do? Well I’m not religious myself, but I remember one line, something like “Then God made man in his image” Okay I think I paraphrased, but my point still stands. If there is a God, which I refuse to take a stand point on, I feel he would be that guy who presses the randomise button to see what happens. I mean, he’s been around for all eternity, right? How many times do you think he would have done this? I don’t imagine even he would have the patience to recarve the mountains every time the universe ran out of energy. 

I think I’ve gone off subject.